Kailey's Birth

Well our sweet baby is now 5 weeks old, she is such a cutie pie and a skinny little thing too though she was a week post due she weighed only 5 lb 4 oz. I went into be induced Feb. 24th @ 5:30 pm-ish expecting and hoping to have a nice mostly natural labor. That did not happen; it couldn't have been more than 15 min after being hooked up to the monitors that the nurse told me I was going to need an emergency c-section. I hadn't had anything done to start labor so I was only having Braxton Hicks contractions but Kailey's heart rate was dropping dangerously low with just those. They hurried me into the operating room and got me ready. I was kind of in shock it was so not what I was expecting. I had had such a normal care free pregnancy that it really blew my mind to know my baby was in so much trouble. They gave me the epidural and dove right in it was so fast that it really didn't have time to set in so it was quite painful and they had to give me a LOT of morphine, because of this I really don't know what time Kailey was born I know they told me but drugs make you forget many a thing the first thing I really remember was the Dr coming in the next morning and telling me that I would have lost the baby had she been in there one more day. . . I wrote the previous two weeks ago when Kailey was 3 weeks. Being a mom is time consuming, Oh and Kailey was born at 8:45 pm. Any how on with the story. . . Kailey had a few things going on the cord was really tight around her neck, she was covered in meconium (sp) or her poop from the womb she had it in her lungs and it took her quite a while for her to breath I got to see her for about 15 sec I gave her a kiss and then they took her to the NICU. Kailey spent 6 days in the NICU but I had to go home after 4 I think leaving her there was the hardest thing I have had to do in my life thus far. She had signs of infection in her blood and also her blood platelet level was low. Over the next 5 days her platelet level kept dropping lower and lower as her breathing and infection issues resolved on the 6th day her platelets jumped up and they let us take her home. I cried twice during the whole thing I cried on the nurse when they were prepping me for the c-sec because I was so sad that I had no idea my baby was in trouble and I cried when I came home without her. J/K I cried more than that but I had blocked it from my mind. You see the last month of my pregnancy I felt really nervous like something was wrong with the baby and I felt like I should go in and have them do a stress test on her but I kept ignoring it because It was an bad time to go in to the hospital or I wrote the feeling off to hormones or something else. I felt so incredibly guilty for ignoring the spirit and putting my baby in danger anytime I had ignored promptings form the spirit before the only person I had hurt was myself so it took me quite a while to forgive myself and just be happy that everything was going to be ok and that is the thing about Kailey’s birth the whole time I knew she would be ok even when I didn't hear her cry in the operating room and when ever they went over all the things they were waiting to stabilize I just knew it was going to be just fine, the funny thing is I felt that way every time I felt like I should go in and get her tested and because Kailey had such a hard time at birth we found out that my blood has anti platelet antigens something that could have been much much worse for Kailey then it ended up being for her so now we know and it won't potentially kill our next child so it is kind of like Kailey could have saved her little brother and or sister that are to come for which I will be forever grateful having a baby really was a spiritual experience even though it was not the spiritual experience I was expecting I am more grateful for life than I have ever been.

Pictures of a Grande Cindy

Well It is Feb 18th so I am one day past my due date. I would really like to not be pregnant any more. Every one in my family was expecting our Little Kailey to be here by now so I was thrown for a loop when every ones predictions came and went. It is weird because usually my family is ALWAYS right like weirdly so anyhow we all wanted her to come over presidents day weekend because every one would have school and work off and we figured it would be mighty convenient, but alas, one is naive to assume/hope children will be convenient.

So, below me you see Mike and I Trying on silly glasses at the mall on Valentines Day we went out to diner and had a grand ol' time I got all dressed up and was happy that Kailey was not going to have to share her B day with a holiday and that she wouldn't have to worry if her friends would be able to hangout with her on her birthday because they all had dates and she was home alone. (That would be so sad)



Anyhow

Here is me using my tummy as a cup holder on Monday 15th, after we made pizza, that's why I have flour all over my shirt. I have an amazingly flat shelf there, very good for holding snacks I think that is one thing I will miss about being prego.




This photo was taken on the 12th of Feb I don't think I've gotten bigger since then but hopefully I will remember to take a photo right before I go into the Hospital





I am really excited to have our baby come though it all does seem a bit surreal still. I have known I was going to be a mommy someday since I was 2 or 3 years old and now with in a matter of hours or days I will suddenly jump into the rest of my life that I have been preparing for my whole life. I'm still just a kid myself but I think I will be OK I have a lot of people that love and support me and a hardworking sweet husband. I think it is a great thing to be a young parent my daughter will have the same age difference as me and my mom I will be young and healthy to enjoy all the events in her life I will be around to see my grand children and great grandchildren assuming my kids don't wait till they're 40 to have kids. I can't imagine waiting 2o or 15 more years to begin my family like most people these days would do.

I feel like I don't have a lot to say today I'm just waiting waiting waiting and it is a little aggravating. I suppose I will go try to walk a few miles and encourage Kailey to come out and say hello to the world hopefully you will have some newborn pics really soon!

The past little bit

So here are my latest Prego pics bottom left is right before Christmas and top Right is today the 22nd of Jan

It took me a while to post the pics because well honestly I had a hard time looking at how cubby I am in my face and arms but my mom told me to get over it and so I did and so there are the pics TA DA!

So here is an update of everything that has been going on the past month or so. . . .
Christmas Eve I got really sick for two weeks and didn't do anything. The week after that Mike got really sick so I was playing nurse lady all week, and the week after that I had such bad gas that I thought I was going into labor or was going to die or something but I figured that was a little dramatic so I stayed homeand did nothing all week and moped and stuff. Now this week I feel GREAT!!! (yay)

I have a ton of energy and I am getting so much done! I have gotten things all organized and bought a lot of things we need for the baby. We decided to move in two weeks lol, ( I think we might be crazy any one bored on Feb 6th feel free to stop on by and help out) Anyhow, so I had to buy furniture (we currently live in a furnished apt) so now we have a couch, a rocking chair and a tv stand, all for only 248$ I really am quite proud of myself. Time seems to be flying by so fast I feel like I'm in a panic to get every thing done before the baby comes and get everything orgainzed and packed so that we can move and have everything organized enough so that if I go into labor people will still be able to move for me. I think I have gotten rid of every thing that i can possilbe get rid of with out starting to randomly throw away my husband's things the only probblem is we still have too much stuff it is a good thing we are moving to a bigger apt we just can't fit any thing more in this place There are only a few things I still need to get for the baby and new apt. I am praying she waits long enough for the car seat to arrive oh and for us to move. She dropped about two weeks ago ( I CAN BREATH!) but I am only 1 cm dialated and to my knowledge I am not effaced but I hear every thing can happen in 24 hrs or so.

I have had a lot of mood swings while I have all this energy and drive to organize or as my husband would put it "Wife is in nesting mode, do not disturb" I think his is feeling a sudden lack of attention I hope he gets a little used to it but I hope even more it doesn't get to bad when the baby is actually here cuz i like my husband a lot and he does requiere a lot of attention. On with the mood swings, I sitll get anxious about all the responcibilty that comes with having a life dependent on you. Normally i would be able to talk to my two best frineds about stuff so that I have a girly emotional relese time but they both recently got engaged and well are much engaged in other activitys. so all my pent up emotion has to come out at my husband ( this is not the type of attention that husband likes) I havn't been angry at him, he has just had a lot more crying to console then usual and then me wondering why it doesn't occur to him to wipe up a mess if he spills something (I dont' know maybe I do get mad at him with all the crying it is hard to remeber)

well sorry i'm so scattered brained with this post hope it makes some sence. Here is a video from New Years Eve of Mike and I being weird and talking to Kailey (I am really sick at this point so my voice is weird and I think Mike is mocking me) and then some baby shower pics for good mesure